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A Poet Inspired by An Artist

Photo by Scott Cramer

    I'm Grateful

She bends her body

toward the rock

seeing beyond what I see

dried needles caught

in small crevasses different

from where life catches

me in momentary thought

    I'm not okay.

 

I need the smoothness

of most days

when I awake

and looking up

find inspiration

then turn to where

the sun

is always there

above the clouds

    and pray.

 

My realization is, "There are moments that catch our attention, cause us to pause, to let them stay longer, to not yet leave them behind, but let them linger in our mind."

 * Virginia Cramer, https://virginiacramer.com/

Play: Playmates Imagined and Real Part Three

Mingo

In America, I have settled into an apartment in my family's hometown. Without a car, I make walking my new life and develop a regular route to the food market, the pharmacy, and the hardware store. At the latter one night, I see a ceramic fox that seems like one I have known before (an experience through energy). As I have to keep returning for purchases, I find my visits now become opportunities to visit this fox that is on display with other fox and also bear at the store's entrance. I have had numerous connections with certain animals and birds in the past that have been sources of inner communication, and so one night I stop. Its eyes had previously appeared to be engaging mine; this time I look directly into them. By inner thought I ask, "Do you have a message?" Why would I buy a statue that obviously will cost more than I find appropriate to pay—what I am not yet facing is that I am going to do just that. The clerk explains that this is a Woodland Fox and takes my sixty dollars, paid hastily so as not to think about what I have done. Placed on a large desk in my small bedroom, it returns my gaze as I wonder about a name, then I hear... Flamingo. "Ridiculous!" A flamingo is a large, pink, water-dwelling tropical bird. I reject that one and keep thinking, but without inspiration. Then the name comes, shortened—Mingo. While it is neither a real animal nor a playmate, nevertheless Mingo conveys comfort and is part of inner child awareness that what is real for me within may also be real for me in the adult world.

 

Marmalade

Marmalade arrived at my home in a small gift box of a potholder, a kitchen towel, a small pottery slab sized for a spent tea bag, and a postcard of a special town I had known. A friend of over 40 years had sent it, had understood how big a change it is to move from India to America for she had been in the Peace Corps in the Punjab. Before the box was even fully unpacked, I had found my gaze focused on a tiger* whose adorableness grabbed my attention. Finding a loop in the orange binding (useful as it was intended as a potholder), I decided that the tiger, by now named "Marmalade" for its coloring, was going to be framed for my galley kitchen where I would daily—and reliably—see my new family member.

 

Reese

When I visit my family in my new town, as soon as my voice is heard at the entrance door, calling "Romie, Reese," two dogs race to meet me. Putting my purse aside, I immediately sit down on the floor. I talk, I hug, I receive a wet nose, moving my face aside and back, but without stopping the nose in pursuit. All the while I'm scratching a chest, a back, behind ears, and always an upturned belly as they roll over, until we both have had enough. And they're off! Reese, the younger, is the more affectionate. Much older Romie, I observe, is the wiser. One day, at lunchtime, as I stood at the kitchen counter cutting zucchini, I found Reese had quickly nosed around one knee and positioned half of her body between my knees. Stopped there, I looked down at her, then around to where my family behind me was watching. One of them said, smiling, "She likes to do that." Reese has another unusual penchant for closeness. She likes to be carried around on a strong shoulder from where she looks out from a different world of height, as a curious and shouldered child does. In a serendipitous family photo taken with both dogs, Romie is the furry, comfortable pillow underneath and Reese the messenger of unconditional love—a full length portrait.

My realization is, "When in the words of Joseph Campbell, we 'follow our bliss,' we are without a need for understanding, or explanations."

* See: "The Young Old: Inspired by The Economist article “The New Old," Purely Prema, July 3, 2019, with pottery photos by a friend of over 40 years.
https://www.purelyprema.com/welcome/2019/7/3/the-young-old-inspired-by-the-economist-article-the-new-old
* Chinese New Year 2022 fell on Tuesday, February 1. Dr. Lin of the Chinese Studies department at the University of Melbourne wrote: "Chinese New Year is a time for people to share their kindness and generosity. . . . 2022 is the Year of the Tiger . . . as a sign of the zodiac, the tiger symbolizes strength, courage, confidence, leadership and strength. The tiger is also known as the animal that repels all evil." https://www.newsdelivers.com/2022/02/01/the-year-of-the-water-tiger-is-expected-to-push-out-of-adversity/

Friendship And Snow Days

"This"

Morning
New snow on the street, on the bushes,
tracks of small animals in the snow.

Dawn gray,
almost snow color.
No bird yet at the window feeder.

Words make tracks
on the white page.
This day is already a poem.*

 Pat Schneider


The book-lined room has a sofa, straight chairs scattered here and there, and the rocker where I wait, my writing pad on my lap, my pen resting on top. I can see Pat in the kitchen talking with several writers who have left their purses and writing pads on their chosen places to sit. Both rooms are warmer than the front entrance, where heavy jackets and coats hang on hooks, or lay over the stair bannister. That space and the front room with the piano are probably colder because there the window shades are up, revealing cold glass and the views of McClellan Street and the side yard behind the driveway. I have been coming on Thursday nights long enough to be a regular, with other writers who are also regulars. A place rarely opens up on Thursdays. It is family, yet different from the traditional family where members are expected to talk about one another. Here, there are rules. A key one is everything that is read aloud after our writing time is treated as written by an author, not the "friend" we had been chatting with moments ago. This is how Pat keeps us safe,—by keeping the space we write in safe. The warmth of the room is the warmth of protection so that we may open ourselves in a way that goes beyond the opening of our coats when we arrive. We open to what has been either joy or sorrow, pleasure or pain in the privacy of a world of oneself. It is only in the sharing that each one becomes part of a bigger one—the group itself—a singular unit where each lives a life in which writing must be a presence . . . where its absence simply cannot be allowed.
 

"This Day"
with a quote from "This" by Pat Schneider

The rocker came from my grandmother
with its wide flat arms and sagging bottom.
I rock, inspecting the leaves of the copper beech
that bear this recent weight of snow.
The sky, clotted with winter, removes from memory
the summer squirrels, sprinklers' twirls, my sun-heated
arms, and legs. I pull the afghan higher.
My mother's voice in the kitchen is calling,
"Duke . . ." I listen. Wondering.
Mrs. C. assigned writing a poem over the weekend.
This day is already a poem.

                    PJC  2022


My realization is, "When separated from others, for many different reasons, we may suddenly feel the warmth of their friendship—in the smallest of ways."

* Pat Schneider, The Weight of Love, (Mobile, AL: Negative Capability Press, 2020), 30. Pat Schneider was my beloved mentor, and friend, across nearly forty years. "Pat Schneider was born in rural Missouri in 1934 and is the author of nine books of poetry. She earned her MFA from the University of Massachusetts, and founded Amherst Writers & Artists, a non-profit corporation which sponsors outreach writing workshops and retreats for “'traditionally silenced populations,”' including low-income women and children. Schneider’s poetry often explored racial and class-related issues in realistic scenarios. Don Junkins, while reviewing her book, Another River: New and Selected Poems, wrote: '“Pat Schneider’s poems cut through to the real world … She not only knows how to write, seemingly without effort, articulate and precise lies, she’s lean in language and abundant in content. Hers is a genuine voice expressed in informed craft, which to be really effective includes the management of tone, which itself depends entirely on the management of restraint' . . . [Pat Schneider] lived in Amherst, Massachusetts with her husband until her death in [2020] 2021."' https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poets/pat-schneider